I've journaled before. I've promised myself a new life before. However, today is different. Today I say it in firm voice, I am going to change my life. Time and time again, I have let life just pass by me. I have lost my chance over and over again. I would tell my students, "Today is the only today you get. After today, it will be tomorrow. Do not let today pass you by without making it count, for you can not go back and do it over." Today I am going to make a difference! Starting today, starting this moment, I am going to grow into the me I have always wanted to be. I know it will not happen overnight. It has taken me 54 years, 5 months, and 14 days to become who I was. I will have to be vigilant at this makeover, for I know I do not want it to take 54 plus years for me to change into who I want to be, who I need me to be.
First and foremost I want to be healthy, I want to FEEL healthy. I will accomplish this by putting only good foods into my body. I have researched and read all the ingredients in dog food, wanting only the best for my Samoyeds... and yet, I have deluged my own body with crap. What was I thinking? I begin today with drinking water, hydrating me. I will drink juices, not soda. I will eat fruit, not candy. I will eat vegetables, not chips. I am starting with water and juice today and tomorrow. Thursday I will introduce vegetables. Saturday I will introduce fruit.
I am going to Bally Total Fitness in Brookfield today. I am going to look into what it will take for me to get my contract with them back. I will be doing cardio fitness and weight training to exercise my heart and my muscles and get me walking again. I have let my body linger too long. My muscles have atrophied to the point that even thinking about getting up overwhelms me. I brought out my Bill Phillips books. I believe in his Body for Life information and know it can be a tool to sculpt my body and offer me the strength I need.
I weighed in yesterday as the old me. On my scale I was 272.8 lbs with 48.5 % body fat and 37.5% water. My BMI was 41.5. My size 26 jeans started feeling tight again. I looked bad. It made me sick to see that I let my weight creep back up. What was I thinking?
NOT ANY MORE.... From now on I will look at myself in the mirror and be proud of what I am doing. I will know I am doing myself right. I will feel good about myself. Every day will be a step closer to who I really am to be. Every day I will feel better as I get stronger. I can feel it already within me. This is good.
I have had a quote on my emails and in my ims from Ghandi... We must become the change we want to see in the world. I am becoming that change...do you see me world?
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